Better ‘living’ Through Chemistry

I am sick.  Monday night I went down to Rite Aid and got some Pseudoephedrine HCl.  I had the nice man scan my drivers license and they let me get my drugs.  The reason they are asking for my drivers license is that Pseudoephedrine can be turned into “Speed.”    They want to make sure that I’m not going around town buying up all the cold medicine and cooking it up.  I took one dosage and my sinus started to dry up as they were suppose to.   I got home and collapsed.  A couple hours later I am awake and jittery.  I need to run around the house.  I need to go swimming in the pool.  I need to read a book.  I need to watch television.  I need to draw.  I am all over the place.  I need to get Nikki her Christmas present.  My mind is racing.  What’s on my schedule for tomorrow?  Ephraim is back from vacation.  Steve Jobs is going to announce the iTV.  Steve Jobs is going to announce the new iPod / iPhone.  My PPA and IDP at work need to be completed.  I need to run.  My bible study work isn’t done.  I need to purchase a couple more figures for my Warmachine army.

The next morning, after less than 3 hours of sleep I drag myself into work and read about the new Apple products.  Get some work done.  Take some drugs.  I go to lunch with Ephriam and Kristina.  I have no desire to eat.  Food doesn’t have any taste.  Kristina asks me if I’m ok, cause I’m not acting normal.  I realize that I couldn’t taste the food my Mom cooked the previous evening when I went there to visit.  It was good traditional Swiss / German food and I should have had seconds.  I couldn’t even finish my first plate of food.  Something is not right.  Around 3:00pm I’m at it again.  I’m going crazy.  I walk around the office to calm down.  In meetings I’m fidgeting.  After my eight hours I head for home.  Before I leave I take another pill, clearing my sinus again.  On the way home I stop at Subway to get a sandwich.  I can’t even finish half of the sandwich.  I get home, and I am asleep in minutes.  I wake up several hours later and I’m going crazy again.  I need to run.  I need to read a book.  I need to watch television.  My bible study work isn’t done.

This morning I wake up after sleeping for about 4 hours and I’m still a wreck.  I am not hungry at all and the idea of eating makes me sick.  I’m going to try to get through the day today without any drugs.  But I’m still going crazy.

This is why I’ve never been a big believer in drugs.  The only good time I’ve ever had on drugs has been the pain medication I got for my teeth.  That was good stuff, but it also did crazy things to my stomach.  Hopefully today I can get off them and I can get my mind calmed down enough to get some work done.  If this is what they mean my better living through Chemistry, then count me out.